The throngs of people weren't there in the suburbs waiting for the train to take them into town. Many of them had already made their way into Boston, or simply never left. A change of schedule, a day in advance for the Boston Pops performance in tandem with the celebratory fireworks display over the Charles River had been moved to accommodate for mother natures own awesome display of power and grandeur, Hurricane Arthur was heading for the New England region, promising rain and wind to dampen the 4th of July festivities.
Bostonians don't care about weather, nor do they mind an inconvenient change of plans, just let it be known that they will do what they want, and if they have to, will move a national holiday celebration ~ they don't miss stuff like this. Our country was built on the grit and determination that those in the Northeast exhibit. Arthur be damned, celebrating our nation's birth was going to happen.
The train made its way through the suburbs, continuing on its routine pathway into the heart of the city, each stop closer, growing crowds of people, finally making their own traverse toward the great banks of the Charles. The car we were riding in was full. There were couples and gaggles, families and groups of friends, all of them relaying what they planned on doing, where they had decided on going, and what ever came to mind during their very public conversations. A family, speaking in an Asian dialect scurried into a car. The children, younger than school age, were speaking in both their parents' native tongue, and then reviewing words, letters, and numbers in English with their parents.
A large group of high school students pushed their way to open seating in the middle of the car. Seated across from one another, they goaded one another with insults, teases and taunts, laughing loudly, apologizing to no one.
An extended family crammed into one corner of the car. An uncle was explaining where they were going to get off. One of the school aged children questioned whether they had lost the rest of their party, four or five cousins, a grandparent, and somewhere in the mix was Dad. "Three stops. That's what I told them. They should be ok, and if not, well.... we'll keep an eye out for them when we get off and make the switch to the Red Line."
Our stop arrived, and we made our way through the underground corridor leading to the Red Line. The crowds had grown. So many people wearing the colors of our nation's flag. A number of soon to be spectators had donned face paint or hair dye, as if to confirm the festive atmosphere that we were all about to experience.
"Charles/MGH"..... the voice informed us as the train cars clattered across the Charles River to the subway destination we were all looking for. The doors opened, and the entire car emptied out onto the platform. There was no real "where do we go" moment, you just were a part of this living, breathing, moving crowd that took over stairwells, moved through gates, and spilled out onto Storrow Drive.
The further down Storrow Drive we went, the larger, more dense the crowds became. An entrance made of Jersey barriers and movable gates had been erected to guide people to checkpoints. Working through the groups, a man wearing an Anonymous group shirt stood by, looking for someone off in the distance. His large frame towering over the crowd that moved around him. An older gentleman held up his bike, balancing the box he had placed like a basket on the front. He was replenishing the water bottles in the melting ice, hawking each bottle for a dollar. His hand scribbled note promising ice cold refreshment.
There was a semblance of a line, a rumor being murmured through the crowd that there was a check point. Two police officers had pulled aside three young men with backpacks, explaining that they would not be allowed into the venue, and that there had been numerous announcements about NOT bringing in coolers, bags and the like. The conversation stayed and the wide line of people moved passed them.
Two men discussed the ramifications of having to change their weekend plans together. They had planned on a trip to 'P Town', but the storm had just wreaked all sorts of havoc with their long weekend. It wasn't worth the trip, cancellations needed to be made. They turned at one point and informed me that we would all be 'wanded' and that my purse might not make it past the checkpoint without being dumped out. Two couples to my right were discussing a schooner trip, and how long it takes to get from Boston Harbor to the Hamptons. Chatting about their adult children's educational endeavors, a graduation had just taken place and a job had been had. This day in advance celebration was not an issue. What had become the issue was what to do with the extra day that would now be more 'down time' for them.
We made it in, not to the circle (the area you see on TV), but just behind that line of trees (the one's you see on TV). You could still see the stage through the trees, but it wasn't really the stage we wanted. It was the bursts of acrid sulphur shining brightly, shooting up into the air. The colors, patterns, working in time with the music being played.
After singing the national anthem, everyone standing, surrounded by thousands, we all sat back down, chatted with our company, hummed to music. A group of four twenty something guys, after lighting up a joint, invited another person who was sitting near them in another group. A few moments later, there were police asking to speak with them.
The line for ice cream wound down in a long snake-like fashion along the banks of the Charles. A few hours passed, and then, it happened. An announcement. Apparently Mother Nature was ready to unleash a precursor to what Boston was to expect within the next 24 hours. The fireworks would be moved up, they would begin in a moment. The crowds of people cheered loudly, happy that they were about to see the pyrotechnic show light up the night sky. And then, another announcement: "Due to weather conditions, there will not be a 'grand finale' and the Pops will not be able to play the 1812 Overture." The crowd booed. Loudly. If they only knew that the great Tchaikovsky himself detested his own piece.
The fireworks display went off.....people moved, walked about, watching the illumination light up the skyscrapers, the facades of so many buildings on either side of the river. As the show continued, we began to move toward what would be our 'escape' from the crowds. Milling about, stopping for a snapshot, a glance of the aerial display, we made our way over to the Boylston Street stop.
Just moments before entering the train station, lightning flashed above our heads. The taste of electric, intense, we made our way to the station before the throngs who had been occupying the Esplanade were officially evacuated. Sitting on the ride home, I realized, there was not one walk of life that hadn't been represented there in Boston that evening. There were numerous dialects, from across my country, to across the world, that had converged on the space of green and ponds along the Charles River. Why, I guess, that I love Boston so much. All of us, together, singing, dancing to the music being performed. Waiting, maybe not so patiently, for the fireworks that were going to go off, just out of sheer determination to celebrate what makes our country great ~ all of us.
Blogging on my experiences, thoughts that randomly pop up, and items that need to be written down so I can free up space in the area called my mind! Not meant to offend, but to give a POV (that would be point of view, otherwise known as opinion). WARNING: Contains the usual stuff you find when someone writes from their heart and hits "PUBLISH".
The Final Hour
Her hand gripped the cold cylinder piped with fluid. There was a tension in the air. Waiting.
Stomach in a knot, sweat making its way down the sides of her face. Heartbeat racing, sounding louder and louder with each passing second.
Each moment being measured by the ever pounding muscle responding to the angst. Breathing faster, harder, her body screamed for oxygen, for a pure breath that would satiate.
The tension in the air, palpable. Nothing could cut through the anguish, the fear that hung like heavy winter drapes. Covering the room with a pall, the muffled silence amplified the moment.
Electric lighting, bland and tin like. The artificial glow creating a washed out look of all that it touched. Buzzing current, coursing through copper lines, racing to its destination. A cold surface, smooth and ungiving. Waiting.
No warmth here, no love, no care.
Papers shuffled, quieted coughs, feet swinging. Waiting.
Over an hour passed, the final exam was done.
Stomach in a knot, sweat making its way down the sides of her face. Heartbeat racing, sounding louder and louder with each passing second.
Each moment being measured by the ever pounding muscle responding to the angst. Breathing faster, harder, her body screamed for oxygen, for a pure breath that would satiate.
The tension in the air, palpable. Nothing could cut through the anguish, the fear that hung like heavy winter drapes. Covering the room with a pall, the muffled silence amplified the moment.
Electric lighting, bland and tin like. The artificial glow creating a washed out look of all that it touched. Buzzing current, coursing through copper lines, racing to its destination. A cold surface, smooth and ungiving. Waiting.
No warmth here, no love, no care.
Papers shuffled, quieted coughs, feet swinging. Waiting.
Over an hour passed, the final exam was done.
Numb
Feeling rather numb inside, I wake to another weekend in progress.
Nothing spectacular, just another Saturday. There's laundry to fold, dishes to wash, floors to clean. My heart isn't into any of it. My soul is quiet, almost not caring if it even exists. I wonder at times, whether it's my defense mechanism, or is it something more.
Sleep seems like an adequate escape, but one can only sleep for so long in a 48 hour period of time. Thinking isn't a good thing right now.... it is something that will only place me further away from everyone and everything. Maybe it's best, that I am further away. Maybe it's where I need to stay..... at least for now.
Nothing spectacular, just another Saturday. There's laundry to fold, dishes to wash, floors to clean. My heart isn't into any of it. My soul is quiet, almost not caring if it even exists. I wonder at times, whether it's my defense mechanism, or is it something more.
Sleep seems like an adequate escape, but one can only sleep for so long in a 48 hour period of time. Thinking isn't a good thing right now.... it is something that will only place me further away from everyone and everything. Maybe it's best, that I am further away. Maybe it's where I need to stay..... at least for now.
Heart Felt Questions
Our heart pumps life through our veins, and poets wax about it's vital part of our emotions. It goes on its business of keeping us going, literally and figuratively.We discuss what is on our heart, in our heart of hearts, and look to seek our heart's content. When things are going well, when the world's troubles are lifted from our psyche, our hearts are light. Spiritual things brings one to lift up your heart to the maker of your understanding.
Our hearts ache when dealing with sadness or loss. Hearts have been stolen, most likely because they were worn on a sleeve. When something is heart wrenching, it is as though it has been ripped from our being.
Oh, and lest we forget, heartbreak ~ there is actually medical proof that a heart feels those emotions of pain, like the one we experience when that first significant other decides that we no longer fulfill their needs, wants or desires, or we have been left behind by the one that we love so unconditionally.
If a heart could talk, speak to you directly, what would yours tell you? Would it ask for you to be a bit more careful, or would it ask for freedom?
Would you have a Grinch-like issue, one of too small; or perhaps filled with blackness and hate, filled from absorbing all of the negatives in life?
Could you see your heart, pouring out all it had to give, invested in this life, the one you've been living all along?
Icy cold, after being conditioned to no longer feel, or is there a fire that burns deep, one that smolders, just waiting for oxygen to bring it full?
Is there something you could have done to safe guard it from the pain your decisions inflicted upon it, or was it guiding you all the way through your journey in this life?
If you were to ask your heart what it wants from you, would it be able to answer, to be true?
My Happy Place
A dear, close friend asked me an interesting question the other day: 'Is there any place in the world that you would be happy?'
The comment was spawned, I believe, by my bite of sarcasm, my tear apart of what ever domicile address that I have had. I have lived in rural locales, small cities, larger ones, cold weather climes, and a sub tropical location. Now, looking to foster my passions, I look to other places, once again.
To answer my dearest, sweetest friend: Yes. There are places that I have been happy. It is not necessarily the location, but the frame of mind, the state of being, that I have visited.
The ski slope on a cold winter's night, ablaze with torches, lighting up individual snow flakes like ever so many tiny diamonds; the frigid air biting at my face.
The moonlit horseback ride through the outback of saw grass and palmetto, where the steady trod of the horses hoof could put a soul into a trance, as the melody of frogs and crickets played simultaneously as a musical accompaniment.
A walk, on an early spring day, where the last vestige of autumn blooms cling resiliently to the edges of its branches. Spanish moss hanging loosely over the arms and limbs of old southern oak trees, swaying ever so slightly in the air, and catching sail in the afternoon breeze that kisses my cheek.
Walking on sugar sand, along with my daughter, listening to the waves rolling into the shoreline. Sun caressing my skin, warming my bones with its intense touch. Speaking of nothing in particular, but discussing of what is on our hearts at that moment in time.
The ride along winding country roads, littered with the last colors of autumn's paint. Leaves swirling in tiny cyclones as I drive past them, listening to my music, singing along to familiar tunes.
Sitting at Nubble Light, or Hammond's Castle. Walking on Bayshore Boulevard, or dinner with a view of the Custom House. Pancakes at a sugar shack, the Ottauquechee running beside me. Dancing in a venue to a musical group, singing to the top of my lungs.
A moment, my dearest sweetest, not a place, and more often than not, a stolen moment in time. That is where I am most happy.
The comment was spawned, I believe, by my bite of sarcasm, my tear apart of what ever domicile address that I have had. I have lived in rural locales, small cities, larger ones, cold weather climes, and a sub tropical location. Now, looking to foster my passions, I look to other places, once again.
To answer my dearest, sweetest friend: Yes. There are places that I have been happy. It is not necessarily the location, but the frame of mind, the state of being, that I have visited.
The ski slope on a cold winter's night, ablaze with torches, lighting up individual snow flakes like ever so many tiny diamonds; the frigid air biting at my face.
The moonlit horseback ride through the outback of saw grass and palmetto, where the steady trod of the horses hoof could put a soul into a trance, as the melody of frogs and crickets played simultaneously as a musical accompaniment.
A walk, on an early spring day, where the last vestige of autumn blooms cling resiliently to the edges of its branches. Spanish moss hanging loosely over the arms and limbs of old southern oak trees, swaying ever so slightly in the air, and catching sail in the afternoon breeze that kisses my cheek.
Walking on sugar sand, along with my daughter, listening to the waves rolling into the shoreline. Sun caressing my skin, warming my bones with its intense touch. Speaking of nothing in particular, but discussing of what is on our hearts at that moment in time.
The ride along winding country roads, littered with the last colors of autumn's paint. Leaves swirling in tiny cyclones as I drive past them, listening to my music, singing along to familiar tunes.
Sitting at Nubble Light, or Hammond's Castle. Walking on Bayshore Boulevard, or dinner with a view of the Custom House. Pancakes at a sugar shack, the Ottauquechee running beside me. Dancing in a venue to a musical group, singing to the top of my lungs.
A moment, my dearest sweetest, not a place, and more often than not, a stolen moment in time. That is where I am most happy.
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